Saturday, April 08, 2006
if was a moment of loneliness i guess.i've been crying since monday, n i dun really wish to say much bout it but somehow i'll tell a lil bit bout it.
confession of the broken heart...
monday, as soon as i got back from sentosa, i waited for 'dia' to start.den somehow i dun noe y suddenly i feel like talking to naq.sumpah i dun noe y.naq says aft dia she's gonna call me so i waited for her to call.i feel dat she's the only person who noes y im feeling like this n cares bout me ,not trying to say dat u pple dun care(even if u dun, get lost) about me but its just dat i really feels she the best person for me to confide to.she's noes exactly how miserable i am.the conversation started n we talk n talk bout her, me n stuff.n suddenly i started to cry.y am i feeling like dis seh?cud i be suffering from depression?ouh wth!y am i crying?okay..maybe most of u pple dun noe dat im the sort of person who can just go in her room, close the door, lie/sit on her bed n start crying SUDDENLY.the word here is SUDDENLY.when i start to think bout me, my life, wats next for me, wats happening to me, wats the future for me,the fear for losing pple, i will think n think n really think bout the situation n break down.we are humans afterall.i haf feelings too.eventhot i feel some pple dun haf one.so i cried on the fon, n naq started to cry too.its just great to noe dat she cares bout me(somehow i feel some pple dun cares bout wat im feeling).im really grateful for wat u've done..ur words are still in my mind, i swear i will do watever i can to make it possible..u're the best gerl..
tuesday, i went to kallang to pack the goody bags for spore sevens.there was no training so i had no plan. n someone ask me to tman go drink.i swear i didnt touch dat damn thing!i went back home n the memories of the past suddenly appeared in my mind.yar of course, wat do u expect, i was alone in my room n started to cry.people change okay :)
wednesday.kallang again.my body was really aching.sometimes wen u expect something to happen n it didnt happen, it really hurts me ALOT!
thursday, kallang yet again.training aft dat.i miss those gerls.n marli too.
yar so dats about it ar.there's more to it..nobody noes the kind of life im in right now.i feel like my life is really in a mess. sometimes i feel like killing myself but dat isnt gonna change the situation.wat i wan is pple to really care bout me, love me.im not getting enof LOVE!im feeling lousy.really sia.. :( im hurt enof.
i haf a feeling the sentosa thingy next week is not going to happen...i want to cry!!!
why?why?why?
-this is how i disappear-
8:13 AM
8:13 AM
WELCOME
now playing-save you
simple plan
LITTLEMISS
facebook addict.
i whine and i sulk.
i smile & laugh alot so dont tell me to stop.
im happy & blessed.
im the.girl from hell.
i play touchrugby & i ♥ tpiranhas.
i ♥ the happyhappypeople.
i am convinced that friends come & go.
shopping & online shopping makes me a happy kid & satisfied & broke.
simple plan/good charlotte/my chemical romance/the click five rock my socks.
love me & i'll love you.hate me & i'll hate you more.
im feeling
and tired at work.DESIRE
FAMOUSLAST
WORD
WORD
abandoned!
THEY
HISTORY